Just when i realised, exams're over! Haha. Had a great time with simon, rayne, wee nee, teck & yi and hong haha. Went over to JP2, finally haha. It was indeed a good way to relieve the stress accumulated through this three weeks. Phew, finally can play some games and there one more impt thing to do. Exam's over means I gotta start switching focus. Haha. Well wishes for the best.

SCM finally over!!! Hmm it turned out to be the toughest paper I have set for since year 1 haha. Hmm couldnt remember what I have studied and cant even do the calculation qns! It's worst than I expected. But yea, it's not over yet. The last paper on friday! 5 Credits!!! Must score. As long as there's still a chance I must press on! Well hopefully the others can do well for the last paper too.

Jia you 2L02 :)

Both tests passed and it went off pretty well. First paper today and it was easier than what I have expected. No problem in getting a pass. Hmm next will be supply chain management. How do you study for a module which you're not familiar with and no tips are given to u? How are you going to finish reading the whole book and remembering bits here and there for every chapters? Well, it's all up to you my lord :) Though I'm hoping to get an at least a b+ for every module but I think if I'm able to get a B+ for this module, it'll be a miracle.

Just when I noticed, there's indeed improvement seen in the means of a more efficient com members selected. If only I were in any com haha. Anyway finally able to aim for a silver medal instead of just a bronze. Gotta start chionging for cca points too le. Silver, that the highest I wana reach.

Started on ecom just nw. It was like wtf! Just one chap alone's alrdy three pages full. One full revision will be like around 20 pages of notes. Is that even considered as giving us impt tips to study? What kinda tips are that lol. Want me to study on this sad day somemore haha. Cant help it. Ren Ming ba.

Anyway the thing which I have always been afraid of happening, is coming. Feelings becoming hatred. Sigh. Hopefully it will nt happen. Acting ignorant??? Hmm ignoring e msg and happily saying u're sorry for forgetting to reply n avoid the qn. I wonder why is there a nid. We're just normal frenz afterall, if u do treat me as one, why bother to avoid lol. Let me knw wad u're thinking bu shi hao. Then I wont be grabbing onto the hope that u actually will like me too. Complicated gal. Forget it.

Tests' finally over! Now comes the real tough one - exams! The 3 examinable modules are so far, my weakest modules haha. Well I'll pray for the better. Anyway today's test was pretty "do-able" for me. Hopefully can score better than the previous test.

The qmgt test today was not very much wad i expected. Cant score I suppose. Caught that hypocrite cheating again. I wonder why our tolerances for her are so low till some1 told me, it's cos she got good results. Others cheat to scratch just a pass but she cheat so that she can get a A. Well, hopefully u will get caught sometimes. It's just a matter of time b4 u get caught. Some1 is bound to report u if u don stop. Don even feel guilty at all. Too much.

Anyway feeling much better this few days though still cant help but keep thinking of her. Wonder if it's good or bad thing since the fact that she don care much bout me. Haha. One sided again. Friends kept asking me if I will be asking her out on valentine's haha. Wad's valentine??? Nvr heard of. Well cant afford to receive a huge blow during this period but wonder if I should do something hmm..

I finally couldn't keep it inside me anymore. Got things clear wif her and just when I thought it was so obvious lol, she's still so ignorant or did it purposely haha. Well nvm at least things are better as it is now. Just hoping for some encouragement from her but it seems like I'm waiting for money that drops from the sky haha.

Took quite some time but yes seems like I'm more prepared for the presentation later. Test tmr! Strive for excellence :)

想要reply就reply, 不想reply就不reply。你是否要做到这样绝吗？你說做朋友並不是朋友, 我們比路人還陌生得多. You asked why m I so dao? Isnt that wad u longed for? U don even understand the pain I'm feeling. I shouldnt have come for chinese service in the first place. It's just becos I wanted to see u. 2 more days b4 my tests start, not even a word of encouragement from u. Isnt that alrdy telling me wad's on ur mind? Tht's it. Too much thoughts in my mind that I cant express it out all in one shot.

Gotta switch my focus back :)

And just when I started studying, u called. Hmm really dono wad's on your mind. Well nvm for now. Glad I can somehow focus for nw alrdy. Just gonna try putting this aside first.

Though it was just merely going out but heng told the whole lecture class and it seems as if i'm getting attached which seems not to be the case. Cant imagine the worse.

Ignore ignore and ignore. Just a substitute to keep u entertained when u're bored? Just a tool to u? Cant help but keep thinking bout it. Toying around with my feelings? Late in the night and u're still not home yet with the guy. You've alrdy become a neccessity to me.

Tried to set my mind on other stuffs but I cant. Looking at how u enjoy ur time wif other guys, cant help but feeling a sense of disappointment. Maybe it was just a wishful thinking afterall. Thks to this blog that andy set up for me. If it's nt for this, I wonder who I can approach to share my burden with. Who will be able to understand my feelings, not her definitely. No one but you lord.

Usually others will be saying hey u should have share ur burden wif me but who in the world will have the time for u. Ha. Dream on.

Philippians 4:13 - I can do all the things through Christ which strengtheneth me.

Cant help but keep getting distracted. Told myself to focus on the other side after my exams but it seems like i'm really distracted by her presence. Hmm told the prob to heng, becky and ducky. Seems like it's really to my advantage but yet i still feel that it doesn't seem to be the way it is. The chat wif them really gave us some hope and hopefully not false hope. For now, exams' re more impt. Lord help me to concentrate on my revision for just three weeks more!

Went out wif tes gal today, hw nice of her to keep her promise bout giving me a treat haha. Thks for acc-ing me to buy my shoes today. Had a great chat I suppose and hopefully I can get to know wad's in her mind.

Went to lionel's hse for project meeting today. As always gab was late haha, and lionel not in his "working" mood yet, half asleep? Lol. Left with gab arnd 12 to meet andy for hair cut at lush. Though he has a test tmr but still acc me out, how touching haha. My hair's really short now. Anyway on our way back, I bought a "Toni & Guy" mousse. Wanted to buy the texture spray but ended buying the wrong stuff, mousse. ANDY!!! U shud have told me it wasnt the spray. Anyway seems like it can be use as the same way as the texture spray and I tried using it just now but seems like it made no differences. Hopefully tmr morning when I use it agn, it'll work out.

Spent so much effort just for tmr, haha not really tmr but for the rest of the weeks. Well, hopes everything goes on smoothly tmr. Tips for test!!!!

Just before I wana blog this post today, I had the lyrics finally intepretted. Am I that stupid to understand MAN!!! Instead of an attraction, u became a huge distraction to me. Every little things u do piss me off. Is this hatred? Tolerance level getting lower and lower. Lord help me, she's a sister to me afterall. If only I took time to read the lyrics maybe I wouldnt be in this state today. But still, couldnt help but getting really pissed off wif wad u do. Wana chat but yet everytime we chat, we'll quarrel or maybe I should say I'll get pissed off. Seems like u're the only 1 whereby I could no longer tolerate anymore. Just feel that u're taking the friendship too lightly. RESPECT man RESPECT! Just why m I feeling so awful now!? Tht's it for my revision tonight, cant concentrate at all. Shucks!

It's been a while! I'm back here blogging again haha. Just realised something today, an attraction to me but yet a distraction to my studies. I dono if this feeling's true but hopefully if it does, there'll be a positive return. Finally projects deadline, tests n exams are around the corner. It'll get more tougher now. Time's previous. Gotta focus!

Though being told the truth, I did not believe it until today, been thinking much, maybe it's really wad my mum predicted. Lol. Hopefully not.